Salve!

Boy I haven't been on in FoReVeR. Geez. I just realized how much I love this thing. So I am sitting here watching the college episode of the O.C. and I just got on one of my college kicks again. I want to get into the University of Charelston SOOO bad. It has been my dream school for forever which is awesome but also icky. Its out of state and away from my bffl, Courtney. Just looking at the website makes me love the college so much more though. I already have a house I would love to live in. Its very victorican, which I love. But enough bout college.
Man I am so out of shape. I have slacked off. BIG TIME. It hurts to do crunchies for goodness sakes! D: I may cry.

Mood Swings Much

So today I totally freaked on my best friend cause I am a weird emotional freak. Well that or pms. But still I freak out randomly on people and it last bout five minutes top and then I calm down. I feel so bad. Hmmm maybe its cause I havent been sleeping. Or that I have been takin extra shifts at work. Gilmore Girls calm me down cause I am a weirdo. I own all the seasons. I am working on the fifth season as I type this. Hehe Jackson just got tricjed into a town meeting. Miss Patty has got skills. By now I am sure you ppl have no clue in fuck what I am talking bout. Oh! I am also addicted to Daisy Of Love. Love it! Flex is a hottie. Geez I really need to stop talking bout topics you all know nothing bout.

Tommorow I am having a girls night with my best friend though. Oh boy do I need that. We need time to talk without her boyfriend around. He really kills me sometimes. If he didnt make her so damn happy id probably shot him. I want my tea thats in my room but I just cant walk that far at the moment.
I LOVE putting pictures on my blog if ya havent noticed. I am sorry if I abuse this charming privilige but hey pictures are 2 Cute!
OK this is the haircut I want! These are bad pics though :(

So Cutie!

YOU HAVE TO BE PATIENT AND WATCH THE WHOLE SLIDE :D

Therapy

Ya know I started this blog was a in a really rough spot in my life. I had been used by a guy for the first time physically, I hadnt been talking to my good friends cause I was lost in all the trouble I had gotten myself into, I was involved with the wrong ppl, I had thrown myself into focusing on my DECA project and my life was just cracked and broken like glass. I couldnt get the full image of myself through to myself or anyone at that time. This blog was and still is my own special form of therapy. I vent and express myself without restrictions on here. It aloud me to mend and slowly put my peices back together. I needed the blog. It was my own form of a diary. I have always hated diaries so this fitted me well. I have my life pretty well together right now for the most part. Its still rough around the edges but I am working on sanding those out with the help of my friends and family. Its like its a neyear for me starting now. I want to do better and be better. I want to be able to look at myself or my friends and look straight into somones eyes and say that I am the best person I ca be. I want to be able to do that again. Soon I will be able to.

Britney Spears - Shattered Glass

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_r2MlOw7Er8

A Little Trainging Goes A Long Way

So I am back from my tennis trainging camp. It was fun but quite alot of work. We would wake up at seven and have to be at breakfast by seven thirty after breakfast we had yoga/streching then we would do drills till ten thirty and we would have a thirty minute break. We would then play till twelve when we would go to lunch and the after lunch we had to go swimming until our matches at three. Our matches ended at five thirty when dinner starts. After dinner we had thirty minutes to take showers and then we had a group activity such as Casino Night, movie, dance, etcs. till bout ten o'clock. That was one long and busy week.

So did I ever tell ya chics how boy texted me thinkin I wanted to hook up with him and I thought he had lost his mind. I just shook my head at that one.

I honestly have been thinkin bout Stubbs alot. I miss him and I wish he wouldnt ignore me. Even if we are just friends. I dont think he realizes how much I hate this and miss talking to him. I hate to even think that telling him how I feel ruined everything.

But I am home now and it feels great but I feel so lazy I havent played tennis in two days D: Thats to long. OMG has everyone heard bout Roger Federer winning the mens finals of Wimbledon and Serena Williams winning the womans finals at Wimbledon?!?!?!? I wanted Andy Roddick to win!!

There was this weird boy at camp who had a fake girlfriend who stalked our team. Weirdo.

Happy Late Fourth :)

I am so lost in my world of random comings and goings.

good girls go bad - cobra starship ft. leighton meester

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yx1qf66EhZw

all those nights - dear juliet

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5P5lLMlgtZc

Everybody Everybody - Black Box Hehe Camp Theme Song :P

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QXV4_ETsw-Y

Ello luvies! I am so sorry for another one of my disappearing acts. I know I pull those every once in awhile and I am sorry to say I will be disappearing for another week starting Sunday for I am going to train for tennis at some camp. Whooo fun. Maybe ill lose some weight while I am there. That would please me greatly.

Well I was making some coffee and I thought of my darling blog and I just decided to come leave a small post :)

My life is still full of boy drama if ya know me. I let Gino go cause well I couldnt be that girl and well he was a dick to me and girl I do not take that shit. But then my good friend Stubbs came along and he finally told me he liked me. I was really happy suprisingly and I told him I liked him to. We set up a double date cause we wanted to go slow since we both just got out of relationships and he ended up not being able to come. I was so mad and to top it off I almost died because of a fly. Some suicidal fly landed in my iced coffee and I almost had a heart attack. I downed a whole thing of mouthwash after that. But then Stubbs like ignored me after that and left me confused. Not some unnormal for me. I finally confronted him bout it and guess what he said. The same shit I feel like I have heard countless times this year. "I like you I really do but I don't want a relationship right now."

@_@

There is obviously something seriously wrong with me.

Yeah..this is the charming boy life of a tennsichic. Geez I hate it. So now I am single and just trying to work it to the best of my abilites.... I think I can rock it :)

Welcome! the new follower on my blog btw. I ts nice to have ya here luv.

Katy Perry - Simple

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CGyqdB_hFxw

The Magic Numbers - Mornings Eleven

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CFZtSZQ0XgQ

Incoming

buzz buzz buzz...

The jean pocket goes

I glance and hit ignore in disgrace

I dont deserve this do I?

Why does he keep coming back?

I keep hittin ignore, dismiss, mute..

Come over

Lets get out

What you doin

The demands to see me file in endlessly

I tell myself he doesnt care

If he did he wouldnt have done those things

Remember the pool

The disgusted looks on peoples faces

The looks of pity from his own friends faces

They all tried to warn you

But now the punishment wears me down

buzz buzz buzz...

Deep breath

The favorite chic flick has been resorted to full of passion and intensity

It doesnt help

Nothing does

Even the closest friends wisdom seems like poppycock

buzz buzz buzz..

All I can do is turn away

Hit that ignore button one more time

If I don't its just one more crack in my foundation

No one wants to be that girl

No one wants to see me be that girl

I wont be that girl.

The emptiness will take time to fill

Everything takes time

You know what he wants

He has got enough

Now with closed eyes I think over and over again

He does not care. He does not care. He does not care.

He actually does not care........

Kate Nash - Foundations

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uhC4E055OsY

Hilary Duff - The Getaway

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iD5hwDIjePs

Cleaning

Today I completely destroyed my room cleaning out the vast amount of useless stuff I own. It was like I had to get rid of all the rubagge in my life. Like I have so much baggage on me right now. I feel weighed down and it slowly drains more of me each day. I needed air so I dug myself a hole threw everything to enable myself a small breathing hole. Its a start and ill take it I guess. I have extremely bad luck and itI know everyone says they do but geez...I really do. This past year I have failed at everything thrown in my path. Its like balancing on a beam and now matter how I place my weight or reposition myself I cant stay on. So I keep getting back on and giving it another go but each time I fall I get another bruise and I get even more tired. Each time I get back up that goal to balance myself is even less appealing. I know I sound emo and depressed but really I am just tired. All I want if for soemthing to work out. For something to be easy and for me to accomlish with a great outcome. But nothing in life is easy and that applys for everyone. All we can every do is our best but even someones best can emotionally wear them.

The Classic Crime - Salt In The Snow
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EMmXAdPYBIY

The Classic Crime - Everything
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OnHRWQTreXQ

Unwanted Care

Wow lookie here I finally have a free moment. Isn't this nice. Ok so I shall start my story leaving for Arizona.....

So we left and went to the airport to fly to Arizona and we got us some serious Starbucks. Ventis barely lasted us the first ten minutes of the flight though it was depressing. We pretty much listened to our ipods and read Cosmopolitian the whole time. It was great. Hehe. But lets see before I left I hooked up with my old umm well idk what to call him. I guess guy I kissed all the time and so I didnt want to be like that again so I told the guy, Gino, that I needed to be in a relationship to do anything with him so we decided to be together the day I left for my wEeK long trip. I shouldve know that would hard.
But so the first day we tanned and may I just say we didnt get any sun there. We just had weird reactions to the funky sun. But we went to a water park and relized everyone is on steroids there and attempted to get tan. Didnt work. One day we went on The Salty River tube thing and we sat in a tube for four hours. Yes four and got hit on by older men and saw wild horses. That was charming. We saw Sedona and all kinds of jazz. It was a LONG week considering I was attempting to make a relationship work. I failed.
Somehow we decided to go back to friends with benefits and I hate that and then now idk what we are cause I am frustrated and hurt and I really like this guy and I HATE it. Also one of my other guy friends likes me and idk how I feel bout that. Is it a good or bad thing? I am so lost right now and well sore cause Summer tennis training is brutal and I helped my friend move into her new house today. Oh and Gino keeps trying to get together with me but he uped and ignored me yesterday in front of his friends. Wtf? What does he want.
This post probably makes no sense since I am so tired. I am so sorry.

I Wish - The Secret Handshake
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wBR0lXD0hEs

Undressing The Words- The Maine
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FBpiFWfSKlw

Ewe. Arizona is well... Hot as Fuck.

I am in Arizona lovies. Sorry for my disapearance. Dang this foreign laptop is hard to type on. Well but yeah Arizona is hot and I have tons of stories to tell ya but I will have to type that up when I get back. Missin all ya bloggers. I really am missin my rant page aka my blog. D:

The Arizona Trip Theme Song

Justin Timberlake Featuring Timbaland - SexyBack
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iAT5ypTjKOI

Reckless Antics

How the hell did I end back with the guy from earlier this year who crushed me and used me? How did I let this happen again And most importanly how is it that I am happy with him again though I'm positive it wont last. I am gonna fool around again with him and fall for him again. Why can't I walk away from him? Why can't I find a normal relationship? Oh wait thats right this is my life so that wont be happening. I hate this and I hate him for choosing me to be the one girl he cant get enough of even though he will never commit. I couldnt just be one of those one time deals like the rest of the girls he has fooled around with. Just.....fuck.

Eminem - Lose Yourself
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xFYQQPAOz7Y

Oh and I leave for Arizona tommorow so sorry if I disappear for awhile :( How will I vent?

I Effed Up..But Did I?

Yeah I am so stupid.


Oh and I am a hypocrite.

Anna Nalick - Breathe (2AM)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jPz3YaIJkjQ

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,

can you help me unravel my latest mistake,

I don't love him, winter just wasn't my season

Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes

Like they have any right at all to critisize,

hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason

Tommorow by Lillix

tomorrow's just another day another way to spend my day all by my self starin at the tv screen flipping through my magazine everything is unclear i need you hear do

and i wake up put on my make up pick up the phone nobodys home i need to break out give me some take out standing side the crowd i wanna scream out loud i'll be ok i'll be ok

walking down this whining road raining days are all unknown i have hit the ground staring up into the sky countin all the reasons why my mind is spinning around i need to breath dooo

so,i wake up put on my make up pick up the phone nobodys home and i need to break out give me some take out standing side the crowd i wanna scream out loud i'll be ok

get off from the floor i just can't take anymore leave that all behind just get along

nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah oohhh

oh,i wake up put on my make up pick up the phone nobodys home and i need to break out give me some take out standing side the crowd i wanna scream out loud i'll be ok i'll be ok

oh,i wake up put on my make up pick up the phone nobodys home and i need to break out give me some take out standing side the crowd i wanna scream out loud

i need to break out!! were ok were alright were ok we'll be alright tomorrow's just another day another way to spend my day

Tomorrow- Lillix

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dsduZX_xwt0

I was completely obcessed with this song growing up. Thought I'd share it with ya peoples. :)

Reality Check with a Drop Rainwater

I had a fucking post typed up and it got deleted! Ugh that pisses me off so much! .......Alright I will retype it.

So my friend Jq has so many boy issues. She is talking to this dude Devin who openly admits to using her and leading her own but does she care? Nope and then there is the freak Brian guy who she used to be involved with but he never wanted to go public so she said forget that but now he is sending her pictures of his fugly penis and for some reason she is inviting him to my movie night. Hell no. Also there was the whole thing with the guy who talked her into phone sex and that ppls is why sexting is in every magazine and tabloid.

But yes so I told Logan that this whole thing wasnt worth it anymore and he didnt like that but honestly I am just done and I dont want him to hold me back this summer. Its to hard.

My coach is seriosuly pissin me off also so I am so switching coaches and that is just bad if he doesnt like it. He is ruining my game and that just can happen. I work to hard.

Its rainging here again. I like it.

Oh I also hate my dad now fyi. Like I am so done.

Holly Would You Turn Me On - All Time Low

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mqdrS1S44e4

Keri Hilson - Knock You Down ft. Kanye West & Neyo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Swj0zTG6wfI

Good or Bad?

Oh! For starters check out what I am gonna do with my hair!

How can you tell if a guy is a good or bad guy? Many girls ask themselves this when they start something with a new guy ( or girl matters your preference :P ) but most of the time they cant even give themselves a straight answer. There are little questions and things you can do to figure out if he really is into you or if he just wants to hook up. Like if you can't have a conversation with him about something that is imporant to ya then he probably just wants to hook up cause he doesnt care bout whats goin on in your life. Now I know its hard to say a guy is bad if he is a good kisser or knows just the right way to hold ya. These guys are pro hoes. They know exactly what to do to make ya melt that is until he finds a girl who he feels is better. Also if a guy tells ya he just doesnt want to be in a relationship right now STAY AWAY. He will never commit to you and he just wants to have fun with no commitment involved. Now I see stuff like the Chuck and Blair relationship on Gossip Girl and hope that there is a chance that a guy who says stuff like that will commit one day but reality is that life isnt tv and it definetly isnt like Gossip Girl. Also big egos are another thing you want to stay away from. That is a sign of a man hoe. Most of those guys are extremely cocky. Now there are many signs of a man hoe and I would like you to post some of the ones you know. Now here is a charming list of good qualities to look for in a guy.

Tennischic's List of Good Boy Qualities

1. He text you constantly. This shows he cares.
But not if its in a freaky stalker way. Stay away from those kind of guys.

2. He asks how you are and shows geniune concern when you have a problem

or your feelings have been hurt. Even if its a stupid problem he should be there for ya.

3. He compliments and notices things besides your boobs.

4. He loves everything bout ya you hate. Everything about ya is what makes ya you

and that is what he loves. You and your personality.

5. You can be completely honest with him. No secrets.

Secrets arnt a sign of a good relationship.

6. He puts you first but still finds time to be with his friends

7. Your music taste is similar. I know it sounds fickle but it actually is a big bonding point.

8. He says cute little things like good morning sexy when he text ya.

Cute things can be cheesy but ya know you love them anyways.

9. He is honest about himslef and his past

10. He introduces you to his friends and family proudly.

NeverShoutNever - Smelyalata

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z9mwFuBfnmI

The Follow Through - So High

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gfWVl99KmsM

Safetysuit - Stay

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wRUAMqDQ5s

Tennis Tournaments, Starbucks and Ruffled Covers

Ok so yesterday I woke up bright and early and got ready for the State Tournament for Tennis. Our school's number one doubles team had made it so we went out to support them. They lost

:( but the tournament was still amazing. I loved the atmosphere and all the tennis going on at one time. So I watched a couple other matches and I had been texting my college boy, Logan, during all of this. He gives me a call and says he wants to come get me so we can chill. Aka Makeout. So he comes and gets me and my friend Courtney. We go to my house and watch a movie while we wait for Courtneys bf Kyle to come over. Finally Kyle gets there and we are sitting there while they are downstairs and finally he mans up and kisses me. Coyrtney and Kyle of course decide to come back then. I asked them if they wanted to put another movie in and they just turned away from me so I took Logan to my room where we ruffled some covers. Now ppls I have my rules. One of them is that my pants and bra stay on if your not my boyfriend. That rule was followed thank you very much. But yeah I knew it would just be a hook up but he wants to see me again. Idk what to think cause he acts like he wants to see me so bad at one point and then changes his mind I guess and becomes distant. I knew nothing but stress would come out of this but hey I had a good time with him and I have a feeling that we will have a good time sneaking around in the future. He doesnt wants his cousins or mom to know cause well he is like 5 years older than me. That sounds so much worse typed D:

3OH!3- Punk Bitch
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5gaHflD4XCU

3OH!3- Still Around

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ta5nc8tyok0&feature=related

College Boyz Likie Hook Ups

Yeah so my sometimes friend Logan is back in town from college and I think he wants to hook up. Doing that never ends well for me. Never.

Is hooking up even right? Does it make you a hoe or a slut? I believe it matters your intentions and what you actually do. I will make out and play around being silly when hooking up cause its just beiong fun but when ytou push the limits and sleep with someone while hooking up that is takin it to far. You can get supa hurt just by makin out. Imagine if you go farther. You'll then be really hurt.

Some may label people for hooking up as a hoe or slut. But that isnt right. It is someones personal choice and unless they do it with different guys or while they have a boyfriend.

Life is complicated and this is just another dent in the page of the book we call Life.

Asher Roth - I Love College

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VRVFfgoIKcg

The Perfect Summer :D

So I have got my perfect summer planned out. I am completely set. Starting out I am going to Arizona the first week of June and my friend Courtney may come so I dont have to deal with all the dirt and deadly bugs by myself. When we get back we will train for tennis and ill work and just chill and party. The last week in June ill be going to a hard core tennis camp with Courtney which is freaken sweet! I am SO excited bout this! When we get back from camp we leave like the next day to spend a week in Flordia. Its gonna be crazy but we will love it and her boyfriend is coming with us on that one so this will please him. He is puting right now from the lack of time he will have with her as it is but hey he has football training so he can suck it up. When we get back from Flordia is will just be more chilling and partying and training. Ah...all this sounds so nice. :)

I got done playing tennis awhile ago and now I am hunkering down to a Greys Anatomy marathon and my English home work because I am bout dead.

OMG I just realize I havent been posting alot of music X_X I must fix this.

The-Dream - Rockin' That Thang
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CxTFNXhb1kY

Psapp - Cosy in the rocket (GREYS ANATOMY THEME SONG)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TVVto-1W_EI

Kate Nash-Mariella
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2sIDKWskyAY

Tennis Party!

Just got back from our yearly tennis party! We had a blast. I must say that seeing my coach smile for once was quite nice.

Hmmm...so what is goin on in my boring old life???? Give me a sec I have to contemplate......

Well so I got my nails done the other day and they look like the shit. I have a guy who likes me but see I dont like him back. I like a guy and he doesnt like me back. Apparently my prescence "bugs" him now. Stupid boys. I had a allergic reaction to god knows what this morning and I looked bloody awful for forever. I pretty much got raped in my front yard yesterday for trying to look at my friends pics. My hair kinda looks cute air dried right now. I love tennis. I am out of shape. I watched the Princess Diaries the other day cause I was upset. I watched Sweet Home Alabama today cause my friend hadnt seen it. WTF? I am gonna watch the movie House tonight. Oh and I watched Sex Drive the other night. That movie is amusin. Rock on Omish people. Excuse me if I spelt that wrong. Oop I am being summoned ta ta.

I hate....

Ya know I hate when guys are have slept around alot. It just ruins them for me. Like I will like a guy and then I hear how they fucked around alot with other chics and then I feel like they are used clothing or something. It just vile and disgusting.

Now mixed signals are another thing. Like I absolutely hate when a ppl says one thing and then say something else. If someone changes their mind they just need to say I changed my mind not pretend to havent said they first thing.

Jealous girlfriends....sigh. They are the biggest bitchs. My friend Adam and I have been good friend since the beginning of the school year and his little fickle gf has decided she doesnt like me around. I talked to him LONG before she ever did. I shall continue to talk to him to. I dont like him like that and I would never steal someone elses bf so this is just ridiculous.


.... I resereve the right to edit this hate list whenever I please.

One Hell of a Rollercoaster Ride

Ok I promised all ya a long ass post and now you must get it! So now I will begin the long story of my California DECA Trip.

So last Tuesday the 28th I packed my bags up and left freaken early to go to the local airport to board my plane to California. My ?friend? Taylor texted me bright and early which was nice of him so we could chat and get there at similar times. I got ready and made myself look all sexy for the airport and then left and got me some breakfast. Of course I had to go to Sonic and get me some Mango Tea and a vile brakfast wrap thing. Tea = good. Wrap = bad. So I got to the airport bout two minutes before my ?friend? Taylor. He pulled up just as my mom hit her boiling point and was freakin about me leavin. No matter how old I get my mom still freaks all the time over me. Unofrtunatelt she probably has good reason. So once I got her annoying ass to leave me and Talyor just sat and hung out. We were both dead tired. Now see Taylor is talkin to his best friends gf which is so not good and personally I hate the chic but yeah so he was texting her and I am physic -not really- and I kept askin him stuff they were talkin bout and he kept freakin that I was readin his text. Geez. But soon everyone else showed up and we got through security and all that jazz. We had time to chill and get food before we got on the plane so we looked around a bit. Then we came back and stole Marcus's seat (Marcus is another DECA guy) and Marcus being Marcus bit Taylor super hard on the shoulder leavin a big ass bite mark. All Taylor had to say to this one was my ex bites harder that you :P Gotta love him. So we board the plane and Taylor and me sit together and my crazy roommate also joins us. During the flight I totally crashed and fell asleep on Taylor's shoulder. Now this is the thing. I rub my face into my pillow to get comfortable when I sleep and I went and did that to Taylors shoulder. I felt kinda bad. Hehe I guess. He kinda smells good and I LUV when guys smell good. He said it was cute though so it was all good :) That night we got to the hotel and checked in and went to Downtown Disnye to eat. We went to Tortilla Joes and I got a smoothie and a salad. It was really good. Later we walked around and I knocked down a big makeup counter at Sephora. It sucked.

Then next day we woke up at eight thirty and went to Disneyland and California Adventure. I went with a group of guys and my roommate Holly. Now Hollys story is that she is sex obcessed and just went on the WHOLE time how she wants to fuck a surfer. WTF? And she is already fuckin like six guys. God knows she probably has some disease. But back to Rainforest Cafe where we ate breakfast. Now I am tellin everyone right now if you have never ate their breakfast there you must do this before you die. I got the waffle and damn that was amzing!

Now after breakfast we made our way to the parks and our little group just goes on every ride we can that is roller coaster like. Our group was Taylor, Me, Tyler (sweetheart who I love), Tj ( Dick who you cant help but like), Brent ( who although is kinda a strong silent type is sweet), Robbie ( looks like JT apparently), and Caleb (he talked to his gf the whole time. I give him props for being dedicated but then he pops in the funniest comments so randomly!). So later we finish and go back to the hotel for DECA opening ceremony and from there we just chill.

The Third day I started my Leadership Program with took up WAY to much of my day but I would come back and lay with Taylor or something.

So here is the thing. Taylor and Me spent alot of time just laying together in bed. Nothing happened but we would lay there and I would have my head on his shoulder and we are like under the covers or we would be laying there and he would be like half on top of me or holdin me or something. I loved when we did that. I trust Taylor so much and he makes me feel so safe but I dont know if we could ever be more. We are super close friends and idk what to do or what to think. Psssst! Guess what you should post your opinion on this here topic ;) ;) wink wink.

But that night everyone in the group went to Hollywod but me, Taylor, Tj, and Tyler stayed behind and we walked around Califorinia and got Chinese. After that we came back and while my boys played basketball I worked out and damn am I out of shape. But then later we came back and I laid with Taylor in bed and that was really nice until one of our sponsors saw us and made me leave to go to my own room. She said it was time for her to get some sleep and she cant do that apparently when I am in a guys bed. So as soon as I get to my room I get a text fromTj and he tells me to sneak to his and Taylors room where I jump right back in bed with Taylor and just chilled. Late Ms. Recher came and caught me though and then reported me. Kill joy. But she seemed supa shocked to find me in a guys room. Gotta love newbies. This night was probably my favorite.

Oh and fyi everyone was askin if me and Taylor were a couple.

Now the fourth day I did the leadership program and came back and we left for Calfiornia Adventure but we mustve been there like twnty minutes when the guys decided to leave and get food. So we left and got food and then we went back the hotel without telling the sponsors. So when we were there I was layin with Taylor and he kinda fell asleep and I turned around and was like hey there sleepy and he was like hey and he leaned away from me and so I looked back cause that made me cold and he goes "You just want to me to hold ya dont you? You like being close to me." I didnt even know what to say :/ but yeah so then the sponsors called us all mad and we got in alot if trouble but what else is new?

The final full day we went to two four hour ceremonys and a dinner event. It sucked to say the least and Taylor was just kinda quiet and weird. But everyone kinda was. We also went to the beach and the peir and shopped. I got me a cute pair of swan vans with turqouise laces. Love them! But yeah so then we went to bed and got up and left the next day. Taylor sat with me on the plane but something didnt feel right. Idk but I lost my hearing partially when we landed and I got it back at ten thirty at night. Sigh well it feels good to be home and that ppls is my long ass post. It has worn me out and this is a summary.

Flo Rida - Sugar

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lsAYuh6xc1E

I'm Back Bitchs!

I am back bro! I returned from California yesterday and may I say I loved it! I totally got the full experience. From goin to ride the Tower of Terror to sneaking out of my hotel room late at night. I did it. :) I have so much to tell all ya bout the trip. Now I know this sounds bad but it is super late here....so I will post it later. I am SO sorry. I owe everyone a big ass post! I will do this!
But until then read some of my poems I wrote and listen to this song. Lots of Love!

I'm On A Boat
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R7yfISlGLNU

“Love Game”


Do you know that you bruise my heart every time you play your little game?
You graze my hand every so discreetly with your thumb
Midnight meetings and hallway glances that put my feelings to shame
That influential look you give me makes me go numb
You say you’re just having fun but this isn’t fun
It hurts me more each day
No matter how many times you kiss me that way
The looks on my friend’s faces shun me everyday
I need stability and comfort not some little love game
Love games are fickle and bring me so much pain
You may think I can be another comfort but sweetie that’s not how this works
Be honest now and tell me what you want
I want you and me to work
But now you are walking away showing me that I was right saying no

Just Another Deep Breath

The player steps onto the court with the wind gracefully blowing their upswept hairThump thump thump
The green of the courts is like that of the nearby football field, freshly cut
The nets are like a spiders web ready to entrap any oncoming ball that dares fly into it
Thump thump thump
Elegantly the racket reaches to the court and lies against the tip of the player’s shoe
The ball is bounced
OneTwoThree Four Five Six
Thump thump thump
The ball is brought to the racket
The sun shines down and bronzes the players firm shoulders.
Knees and back bent ever so slightly forming the player’s body into a sleek position
Spectators hold their breath and take in the full style of the player
The player takes a deep breath
In and out
The racket is drawn up the leg flowing up it like a stream
The ball is thrown into the air
Up it goes and falls
The racket makes contact as if it is drawn to it like a magnet
Two forces combining to form one strong one
The ball flies over the net at an incredible speed
The racket falls swiftly and surely at the hip
The serve is in




Unlikely Strength

I stand in the crowd and watch as the people all shout
I am pushed aside and trampled as if I won’t fight back
I see the destruction
The men who cheat and the woman who lie
The children with an imagination to believe they are ready
The world has hit a point where it is grazing rock bottom
The pollution clogs the minds of all bringing more crime and corruption
Through all this young helpless children cry out
I see the destruction
People protest ridiculous issues and the government throws our money to fickle causes
Do they not see society crying out for help?
It isn’t even crying though it is screaming
Begging for a chance to breathe a fresh breath
You say I can’t make a difference
That no one will hear me threw the sounds of war
Well hear I am breaking through the darkness determined to bring in the light
I will stand strong and fight the wrong of men and woman
I may die trying but that is better than sitting here on petal watching our world die
I fly with hope under my wings and summer’s new winds with a mission
To save this horrid place we call home for I see the destruction

Mango Tea and Unreturned Love

2 days till I leave for Cali

This stupid boy cant take a hint.

I love Sonic Mango Tea. Its the shit.

Sorry for the short post D:


Lit - My own worse enemy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=my9zJF6fZ9I

I'm A Dang Slacker

Oh boy I have not posted in fOrEvEr. O_o I am a horrible person.

I am so sorry all my blog lovas! Like I said I am horrible person but I shall now post and hopefully make up for my abscence a bit.
So I got a new car! Its very nice and lets me get from one party to the next :D I really do like it. It is just a simple impala but still its the shit.

I LOVE WITH A MAD BURNING PASSION Never Shout Never. Ha i'm such a silly goose but still their music is really good. Maybe I will include some of it in this here post. If you are lucky that is. Ha.

Boys absolutely DO NOT know their limits. Like that boy I fooled around with who just wanted to be friends is pushing it. He wanted to be friends right? Well after alot of work on his part I decided to just let it go and be his friend but no he cant just be happy with what I give him no he has to push his friend limits. He is gettin WAY to close to me and is just being a big ass flirt. It makes my life hard cause I have moved on and I liked the closure of just being friends but no no he has to be an asshole. -sigh- What can I expect? That is what he is in my phone as.

Random Opinions From Me:

• Black nail polish is for everyone not just emotional wrecked people.
• Hot tubs are magical thinking tubs.
• Those quite kinda cute guys in middle school can get supa hot
• Books are a way to escape
• Coffee although bad for you is the shit ( I have to stop drinking it cause I am gaining weight D: )
• Guy friends are beautiful in times of need for advice
• Parents are incompetent freaks
• Friends with boyfriends tend to have sexual tension issues
• Sexy underwear can make ya feel great even though no one can see them
• A girl has no issue cussing a guy out
• Late night movies are calming
• Freeze pops are magical sick food
• Sexting is an actually term. Yeah I know. WTF?
• Music is calming
• Advil is a beautiful drug
• I am a fattie
• Smoothies may be able to replace my coffee addiction

Oh goodness. So I am going to California next week for DECA. It is gonna be SO much fun. Although the thought of me in a bathing suit isnt to fond to me right now. I can't wait! Geez its gonna be sweet!

I love sayin "Are you shittin me" to people. It adds emphases -sp?-

Big City Dreams - Never Shout Never
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ukZ755_tRoQ

Your Biggest Fan - Never Shout Never
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bWreHn1FDCc&feature=related

Needy Boys. Tsk Tsk. Your Pathetic.

Boys are so stupid. They use and abuse you and leave and then they come back crying that they need you or your freindship. Why do they do that? Cause they bloody need ya to keep their lives exciting.

Ya chics know that guy I had a thing with? We were kinda just casually fooled around a bit here and there. I posted about it awhile ago. Well to keep ya updated. I finally told him that I wanted a real relationship with him and he told me he just wanted to be friends. Psh I was not gonna be his friend so I just was a bitch to him cause the asshole used me. Even though he is convinced he didnt. He says he didnt cause "I didnt stop doing stuff with him so its also my fault" but see I thought he liked me and that he wanted to be with me but he didnt like and he didnt stop. I didnt stop cause I actually liked him. I wasnt using him. Whatever he wasnt worth my time but hey I learned from it and had a good time for awhile :) but yeah so he is texting me and is like "I want you to be my friend. Your friendship means alot to me and I never meant to hurt and I know you know that!" So dramatic ay? He needs to chill I just told him its whatever and he starts whining that he doesnt want things to be that way and that he wants me to want to be his friend. Well so I just was like man if you actually try to be my friend maybe ill try. Want to know a little secret? I am not gonna try to be his friend. He isnt worth my time but he is my partner in Marketing for the rest of the year so I have to civil I guess.

But see guys need us ladies but we do not need them. Now some of us think we do but we dont. What we do need in life is friends and their love but you do not need a fickle boys love even though it is nice to have. Guys are like testing a new type of medicine. You can have a good or bad reaction to it. Some guys work well for you. They give you a special glow that just brings out the best in you. Some guys dont though. They bring out the worst and make you go into a gloomy state that isnt you. They ruin the great person you are and replace your true self with a shadow of it. Put yourself before a guy chics cause that is the right choice.
Guys need us though. They will deny they dont but they really do know they need us and that kills them inside.


Britney Spears - Toxic
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TkIytHD5v9c

Christina Aguilera - Aint No Other Man
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P-Flgwb1pI8

Kiss Me In Cali

So I have my National DECA Competition coming up and as you should know it is in California. I can't wait to leave. I want this trip to be amazing and mostly I just want something brilliant to happen. I want magic, drama, and some romance while I am there! Goodbye stressful life and here I come Cali with high hopes and expectations. I mean I just want something just great to happen. If you look back on my post The Feeling or whatever I named it :P I talked about feeling like something was gonna happen soon well I think it is gonna happen in California and I just can't wait to see what is it. I know it could be good or bad but I have never been one to hide from the future so all I can say here is Bring It!

Metro Station - California
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jTHryFNWpxU

Phantom Planet - California
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oNRs0RM3EEE

Vagueness Will Be The Death of Us All. Goodness.

I absolutely hate with a mad burning passion when people are vague. It is so bloody annoying. Like try saying something that isnt the words yeah or ok. I will kill all you vague people out there. Now I guess I must admit I can be vague or short with someone when I am upset or pissed off. I will just be like whatever. ok. Uh huh.
Its really freaken crazy cause this vagueness will drive you up a wall. Oh! and I just despise when A guy I like is vague with me. I am like just speak up and say something worth listening to. For real when ppl are vague you have to try to revive the conversation. That is alot of damn work to do all in ur lonesome. Vagueness is just awful and it is killing my brain cells. I need more vivd responses.
-sigh- oh well I shall go back to my assload of work now.

Carolina Liar - Im not over
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N--6zikJ-9c

Power Shoes

It's amazing how a new pair of shoes can make you feel fabuous, powerful, and confident.They instantly change your mood and let you stride with a charming air about ya. Shoes are like a power boost. They give you energy to make it through the rest of your day.

For instance when I was at DECA competition I had just gotten the CuTeSt black stilettos. Those shoes let me walk into the judging room with confidence and I owned the halls full of DECA contenders. Shoes are powerful I tell ya.

Now I may sound just off my rocker here but sseriously think about it ladies. Hvae you ever just felt better cause you feel like you look better even if its just on your feet. Shoes are the shiz and they can make your outfit.

SOOOO NOT a country fan but this song fits for this here post.

Kellie Pickler - Red High Heels

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g-aBSh2-O5I

Worth it?

Is going for a guy you care about worth losing the amazing friendship you already have with him?

Should've Said No-Taylor Swift
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hgczyQjHGhk

-this song totally reminds me of my last guy drama- :P

Many Adventures Ahead

I want to travel.

I want to see the the world through my own amber/green eyes.

Not the eys of the rest of the world.

The busy streets of New York. The vintage image of jolly old England.

I want to see it all.

To study in Spain in their world famous Aquarium. To dive in the Great Barrier Reef.

The hills of Scotland.

The sexy British accents that thrive in London.

So many things to see and do.

Spin on teacups in Disneyland till you lose it.

Kiss a special someone in the rain.

Shop in L.A.

Drink coffee in italy.

Go through amazing bookstores found in hidden places.

Wimbledon in London

So much to do yet so little time.

Why does anyone want to stay in one place and not even visit the rest of our wonderful world?

This answer I do not have.

All I do know is that I want to see as much as I can.

What will you go see next?

Vanessa Carlton - A Thousand Miles

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pnkvhi1XOR8

Stay Your Beautful Self

Ok I am going to be straight to the point here and not ramble like my last post. Love who you are and don't change yourself for anyone but yourself. Life is short and its pointless to waste it hating who you are, how you look, or what you do with your life. YOU can change your life if your not satisfied with it but only change it cause YOU arnt happy with yourself not because some asshole isnt. It makes me really mad to see stupid people go and cut themselves and throw their lives away cause life is "tough" or cause they "dont fit in".

You know you see those popular bubbly people who always have a bunch of friends and they are just so damn happy? You know what those people have that make them that way? Confidence. Confidence is one of the most atractive qualities a person can pocess. Knowing who you are and being happy in your own skin gives you that quality.
Why not be yourself? I ask that cause SO many people chose not to be themself. They do what their stupid "friends" do or just do what they think will make them cool. Real friends love you for you and everyone is cool in their own way. Why go around trying to be cool when really you look like a stupid shit doing it? All I am here saying is that you should BE YOURSELF peoples cause you can be a beautful person but to do that you have to take off that mask you hide behind.

The Last Goodnight - Stay Beautiful

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H5c2iTcSlbE

Life is A BigAss Book

So you know how moms would go on how boys will one day be "banging down the door" for you when you were younger, right? Everyone would tell you how cute and beautiful you are growing up and how smart you are. Your friends would tell ya that guy you like isnt that bad looking and that he is "funny". Even you would stand in front of the mirror and tell yourself that crazy form of art that you called your hair is cool. Also growing up you would tell yourself oh I am not fat I am just still growing up.
Well... looking back we all know that is the biggest bunch of bullshit ever. Like i'm not shittin ya here.
We were all the biggest bunch of freaks growing up. Full of size fourteen jeans, bad style choices, and a big built up ego that our familys gave us with their big but lies. Its pathetic and quite tragic that that is how it is but that just is how it is. All of this sounds just stupid and and a bunch of rambling but hey I am getting to my point here and that point is that everything we were and did growing up made us who we are today. Yes, I did just make that red to show off my pretty point. :P
But! alright so technically our life is a big empty book when we pop out of our mommies and then as each day goes we add to it. Occasionaly changing the binding or the mind set of the book. Each event leads to another and each person added to your tale makes a the very least a slight impact on your future. Hmmm......... I am done with this thought although I could go father with it but I have had another one....I am going now to make another post. Haha sorry luvies.

John Mayer - No Such Thing
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ya93JWrdxFc

The Feeling

So I get these feelings ever once in while. Its a feeling that like something is gonna happen. It could be a good or bad happening though. I had the feeling before my first kiss, before I hit my friend in the face with a racket and knocked her bloody tooth out, before I passed out in the shower once, and etc. Tons of things have occured after I have had the feeling. I have this feeling now. My life has just now calmed down but of course the feeling has come back at this moment. What will happen, I don't know, I want it to be good. I need something good to happen in my life for goodness sakes.

Portions of Foxes - Rilo Kiley
http://www.playlist.com/searchbeta/tracks#portions%20for%20foxes

Here is a qoute from my friend Hannah. These are her exact words but I did my best. I thought this was so bloody cute!

"Girls like sex! But can't have it cause they get prego! Boys like sex! They can have it though cause they dont get prego!"

Here Are A Few of My Favorite Things..

There are many things in life that make us happy. Everyone is different. Some like the brisk cold of winter especially when it snows while others like the warmth of the sun on their back during the summer. A person is not defined by their favorite things but it is one of thebuilding blocks to who they are. So here are a few of my favorite things. I would love for you to comment and share your own. :)

Girls Just Wanna Have Fun - Miley Cyrus
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UmzDyOAaRJE

I know, I know its Miley Cyrus but ya know I kinda like this song and although I am definetly not a fan of hers I am a fan of this song and I like the upbeatness she has added to this song.


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A mildly warm day where everything feels right. The wind is light and breezy just where is doesnt screw up your hair but makes it look windswept and sexy. The sun is warm and gives you the sun kissed look and makes you proud to be in your own skin. This day gives you the adrenaline rush to be you and be proud of all of who you are.

Poptarts and coffee on a spring morning. You sit in the hottub jamming to your fav music and sipping on your coffee. You sing along to a song such as Cyndi Laupers - Girls Just Want To Have Fun with the morning sounds awakening the rest of the world. Of course the poptarts have to be your favorite.

Shopping, such a exhilarating experience. Finding the perfect fli flops or buying a killer pair of jeans that make your ass look aMaZiNg. These moments although sounding fickle just add to good day and make you happy although material things in life arnt that important but you love them anyway.

Tennis....A good day at the local club or public courts with the sun shining and a Starbucks iced vanilla latte is the perfect tennis day. Running through drills and perfecting your backhand just rushes me with excitment and energy. Make the best of the fun workout.

Holding the hand of a guy that you really care about. Getting the feeling that you care about him and he feels the same. He traces your hand even so slightly and softly and ever touch sends a buzz of emotion up your arm into your heart. The same goes for getting a cute text from the guy you have a big crush on. Seeing that he has said you are beautiful or cute. It puts a big smile on your face even though you know the sweetheart is full of it.
Walking into a room and catching a couple guys eyes on you. Nothing is more fun that playing eye games with a cute guy. You know you have won the game to when he mans up and comes over to ask for your number.

Talking to your friend and just connecting with them. Having the feeling youve grown closer and became better friends even though you already know that friend already is the best friend ever.

I have many favorite things but these are just a few of mine that I thought I would share. I hope some people share theirs.

Lots of Love,
Tennischic

Sexting...WTF?

So the other day I was chillin at my friends house and her little sister and her mom where there and her sister goes and says, "Sexting is illegal." Sexting is apparently having phone sex. This is a new term for me and I am not even old. But so I sat there and seriously had a fight with a 12 year old about whether "sexting" was legal or not. Yes, I did this right in front of this little girls mother. Her mom kinda just sat there and stared. But see I knew I was right and that is wasnt illegal so I had to prove myself right. Ah..ridiculously good times.

Magical Walks

So I havent been able to have a good chat with my bffl, Courtney, in forever. I have missed that girl a great deal and its been rough cause I have had quite a bit going on and I need that her. Last summer we would walk all the time and we just talked about everything together and those walks always had the magical ability to make me smile and feel better. They made our beautiful friendship even more beautiful. So the other day after we got back from tennis camp we went for a walk. I got to talk her about alot of stuff I havent been able to. It was so nice and I look forward to more of those walks. Spring is in the air ppls! And summer is on its way!

Ha one of my DECA advisors is determined that spring means girls fights and PDA and she had to break up a fight yesterday and it was ridiculous. She just kept mumbling "spring is here." under her breath. Haha gotta love that women.

Ray J ft Yung Berg - Sexy Can I
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RiQ7CksjI7I

This song reminds Courtney of the summer. Wtf? :P

Pass The Chocolate Covered Strawberry Icecream Plz

So another day and may I say I am being very commited to this blog over break. I just love being on it.
Hmmm well I was forced to play tennis today. See I thought I actually was gonna get a break today but no I was made to go to the public courts and play. My feet went numb and hurt like hell but oh dont worry about that cause we had to play. Psh whatever. I did get me some freaken good ice cream after though. It was Chocolate Covered Strawberry icecream and I just loved it and ate ALL of it. I am such a fattie.
So topic for the moment: Is confidence attractive to guys? I really dont know if it is or not. Like I am a aggressive, straight forward and, according to my friends, confident girl. Are these qualities attractive to guys? This is an interesting topic. Like I know what guys like physically. Not to sound dirty or whatever :P but I dont know what they like personality or character wise. I have so many guys issues its pathetic but I want all you lovies opinions.
My opinion really is that I can't change who I am and I wont change for a guy. A guy who truly loves or cares about you will love your personality and who you are regardless. The qualities that attract a guy I personally think change with the guy. Its like going back to the whole love being a game thing. The way the game is played matters on the guy and how strategic he is.

Soulja Boy Tell`em - Kiss Me Thru The Phone
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QhwQay4QiOw

I was singing to this song while driving today. Its the shit.

Ka pow!

I totally just played seven hours of tennis. Bloody hell I am tired but I needed the practice so its whatever.

OMG stalker alert. I have been stalked all day peoples. Weird guys at the tennis courts and now this freaky rapist-to-be from school. I am just going to get me a freaken bubble like in the movie Bubble Boy and just confine myslef cause there I feel as if my bubble is being invaded here.

Oh and just to inform everyone booty shorts make the world go round and if anyone objects then well they can just go suck it cause I am for cereal here.

Awww my friends dog is so precious. He just lays here all sweet next to me like the baby he is.

Oh! and apparently I have a smoking hot body. Yeah you wanna know where I heard this from? Like a bunch of my friends boyfriends friends. Ew. I am sorry but none of them are my type and, I have to be shallow here, cute. God help me.

Hmm and yes I would like to say I love seeing your comments on my blog. It just puts a smile on my face. You all are just beautiful.

The Maine- The Way We Talk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8w8jlph8cg

Spring Break Baby!

Oh yes, I am officially on Spring Break and hell I gonna have fun with it! :D

Lots of Love to all you Spring Breakers out there.

There For Tomorrow - Pages
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2yqLPtRGfvo

Oh yes I am gonna rant about a guy while im on also. *cough cough* Ok well this guy who totally used me sits there today and goes on about how he is "watching a movie" with some fugly chic this weekend and how sexy she is. He knew I was right there and that I could hear him. His friends even were like man shut up. His friends knew for gods sake that I was hurt by this yet he didnt even think about it. I hate this guy so much. Why can't he just...well keep his distance. I keep mine. He should return the favor.

Let Us All Listen To The Wise Rock of Love Chic!

My perfect day at the moment would just be spending it with a group of friends who I know love and care about me regardless. A day at the beach to get a tan on my pale tennis muscles and to just relax and meet some cute boys. That sound SO nice right now....

I have no tennis practice for once, its astounding. I cant believe our coach actually gave us the day off. That like for real never happens but I dont mind having this day for sure. I got me a assload of hw. But yet I sit here typing away on this lovely blog of mine. I'm a smart one.

Whoops I should probably text my friend Hannah back....yet she doesnt seem that interested in talking to me so psh.

Ok random topic. Love is like a big game but why do guys insist on mkaing the game harder by adding twist and turns to the game board? They'll add a new rule or player and that game keeps getter harder and harder and you just cant quit cause the other players have you surrounded. You end up losing all your life and value in the game yet there you still sit on the gameboard helpless and lost until another player joins and comes and saves your ass. Its to much. It wasnt meant to be this complicated but guys make it that way. I am gonna pull a Ashley from Rock Of Love Bus and just go and say " I am now a lesbian cause its just simplier!" Ha not really but cmon when is my ass gonna get saved here?

I really like the song that just came on my ipod. I was singing it this morning walking around the weightroom. I just may put it on this post with my other song choice. So here ya lovelys go. TWO awesome songs.

Lady GaGa - Love Game

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LLMJvVdS1go

*Stay Close, Don't Go - Secondhand Serenade*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n4BYUV8VOzI

"I won't settle. I wont settle.Oooh Yeah. " - KP

O_o ..........

I lost my doubles match today. This does not please me.

Oh! Yes I did make it as an alternate for DECA National Competition. Hell yeah baby.

Hmmm I am so spacey and lost today. I think its from a lack of sleep.

Dude why is it that guys think they can be your friend after they have used and hurt you???? Answer me this cause I cant bloody understand it.

Alright here's another song for all you dolls. Lots of love and excuse my lack of postage.

Ashlee Simpson - La La
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZUeWqRzBPSU

Nationals baby! Oh and excuse all you rude people out there.

OMG. I got chosen to go to nationals! My friend Taylor texted me during my match yesterday and told me I got chosen to be in the Leadership Development Program. I was so excited I started jumping all around all loud and stuff. Which you are not supposed to do during a tennis mtach. But I was SO happy I didnt care. California here I come! Its gonna be so fun and this will look kick ass on any type of application. :) Oh geez I am happy.

So I did have a match yesterday and I played the most bitchy player eva. She was like I dont know what to do and what side do I go on? Wah Wah Wah. I am pretty darn positive she has been playing longer than me yet she acts like a lost two year old on the courts. Suck it up. But then we started playing and she is actually a decent player except she mental problems on the court. She starts out winning but oh excuse her she gets all mad when I win a set. And then she sends me evil twisted smiles when she gets a point. Bitch can go die. But I stayed cheery and happy and just bounced around the court with a smile on my face the whole time. Ya know what? I am sure she hated me for it and god do I love that.

New Found Glory - Iris
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X80_smiZzck

Party Like A DECAstar!

Ello all! I am back from my DECA competition trip where although I had a fun time, lost in my category. :( -tear tear- BUT I had a great time anyway. I got to chill with the guys and order in takeout at our hotel. It was pretty freaken sweet considering we had like more than half the day free and we had no room restrictions. The only rule we had was that we had to be back in our rooms at twelve now I can work with that even though one would have been cooler.

When I found out my I didnt win in my category I was just so upset. I barely kept it together in the cermony. My friend Taylor was there for me though and I never appreciated him more. We became pretty close over this trip. You gotta love him. He held my hand and had his arm around me some of the night and worked to make me feel better even though he shouldve been celebrated since he got one of the biggest awards at competition.

I had lots of fun though the rest of the time. We played various cards games from presidents and as Matthew Maconghy -sp?- says in How To Lose A Guy In Ten Days BULLSHIT! haha we had a fun time with that one. We just went around saying buuulllllllshit! I had to babysit my roomie a bit since she kept getting drunk and high. Tsk tsk pathetic. But I worked out with the guys and Taylor would come and get me in the morning and we went to the hot tub and to go get coffee.

I loved the whole atmosphere of competition the business atire and the fresh smell of panty hose and monola heels in the morning. -jk jk- but it was cool. I felt as if I was doing something signfigant and I just loved it all. I am going next year and I cant wait. Also Taylor is my partner in my caetgory next year with this chic Britney. We are gonna rock it!

Shop Boyz - Party Like A Rock Star

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cj63G4MZpms

Empty pages ready to be filled

Ive noticed on blogs that each person tells his or her own stories in their own special way. Whether its poetry or with rhythmic passion they speak up and share their story. I am a stright forward person and well I just type up my stories in that fashion. Straight to the point. I love that blogs are a persons way to express or to just vent. Its like how some people do yoga or drugs or ya know those people who are like addicted to tanning beds and are like orange? Yeah this is so much better and way more exspressive. But I just love that story aspect. I feel like im reading the climax of a story ever time I log on. I am a book junkie so I really enjoy that. Be a doll eveyrone and share your stories. It makes life freaken fabulous.


Natasha Bedingfield - Unwritten
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4lFXy5bIiSA

Eek! Birthday Time!

Ello all! BIRTHDAY ANNOUCMENT! Monday March 2nd was my Birthday. Hehe thought I would just share that little tidbit of information with everyone :D


Happy Birthday - The Beatles
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=glNjsOHiBYs


Haha oh man these guys sing this funny. Listen closely.................TO YOU.

Saltwater Wash Over

Ya know I absolutely love the song The Saltwater Room by Owl City. Its really nice and its calming to listen to in a way. But I was thinking about it and Saltwater although unpleasant is refreshing. Jumping into the ocean is like extending your arms open to an unknown world and when you jump into the bitter water you are refreshed and when you emerge from the water you just arnt the same. You are a new, exotic, adventurous spirit dying to feel the rush one more time. Over and over again. Its exhilarating. Thats how the ocean makes me feel.
I always loved that feeling of freedom and the unknown. I grew up in a very shletered home and the recklessness of the ocean grabs me. You never know what it may do. This attitude of mine makes me different from the rest of my family. I love to live for the moment and to take a leap of faith and dive into that saltwater. It may hurt when first thrashing into the wave but once it engulfs you and you just flow with the tide. The future is undecided and its thrilling. Life is a beautiful, crazy, rough, and timeless thing. It is worth every moment but dont expect it to be smooth. Flow with it though and let the tide take you where you are meant to go. I am a strong believer that everything happens for a reason. This has been hard for me to remember lately but trust me its a truthful reasoning.
I ask for all of you to just once take that dive into the the deep blue and experience the rush. You won't be dissappointed.


Owl City - The Saltwater Room
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=usR7mMHUhlY

Let the Fire Consume You So You May Rise From The Ashes

Ok so ahhhh... Let me reflect here for a moment. The player I discussed in my previous post totally let me go the other day. Ouch. See he used to want to be with me for real in a relationship but I got scared then and I pushed him away and that hurt him and he didnt wait for me and I dont blame him. But I have feelings for him now and he moved on and didnt wait for me so he doesnt want to be together. I ruined everything and I just hate that so fucking much. I know I deserve and can do better but......just ugh it hurts. But theres my ranting reflecting moment. Quite pathetic I know.
Hmm I am going to this big competition thing next weekend and there is a cutie, John, who I would like to chill with. We get the whole hotel to oursleves and no restrcitions besides we need to be in our rooms by twleve. Now that I can work with. It would be nice if we got to hang a bit and I also would like to party a bit while I am there. Guess whose excited? Ha well lots of love chics and dudes.

Owl City - Rainbow Veins
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2EsMHFXdLxI

Oh this is jsut ridiculous now

God i'm tired...ugh ok ill type my post now. I am obviously so dedicated. :P So....well my life has just be dandy. I got to talk to the cutie in my entrepreneurship class today. Well actually he talked to me. Gotta love him and those gorgeous blue eyes. Hehe.
Man I get SO tired after I eat its ridiculous. Like I just ate chinese and I am practically falling asleep at the comp.
Ya know, I use this blog thingy ma jig to rant about guy shit alot. Sweet.
Speaking of guy shit this guy I totally madeout with on Valentines day has been playin me Hot n Cold. Its killin me cause damn it I wanna be with the player although he is extremely unhealthy for me. -sigh- Such bad choices I make but hey I usually have lots of fun with those suckers.

Katy Perry - Hot n Cold
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y-LhyAVzDBI

The Veronicas - Untouched
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Ekb6cgxjRQ

Forlicing on Valentines

So ah Valentines day...So much can happen on this holiday. From hooking up to a romantic evening alot can happen. I personally enjoyed my Valentines or atleast I did for the most part. Post your Valentines Day happenings and share your forlicing moments. Hehe if you post I may just share my own. Lots of Love Babes!


Candle (Sick and Tired) - The White Tie Affair
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cTRhrTY_OrY

Get Some Balls Boyz

Ok so whats with guys and not maning up and asking a girl out eh? I just don't understand. I mean the guy knows the girl likes him and that she is putting in effort to see him yet he still can't even ask her on a date. I want a guy for once to just say what he is thinking instead of saying what he thinks will make me happy. Cmon now boyz I know you have got to have a little more originality than that. So frustrating. Well my boy aint gonna man up in time for Valentines Day obviously unless he gets some balls tommorow so hmmm... we shall see.
I need to get out the bloody house already. Geez. My mom has me on lockdown. Oh well that won't last. It never does cause really she has no control on me. I will do whatever my little soul pleases. She told me to change out of my booty shorts for when I had my guy friends over and guess what I wore? My booty shorts and may I say I worked them.
Ha I so stole one of my buddies Baseball jacket today. He is pissed but he shall deal cause he aint getting this sucker back. I likie.


Don't Trust Me - 3Oh!3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O5JFdJkBLUI

Geez so suspicious

Well I am quite sorry for my disappearing act. I have been in training and well that takes ups alot of my precious time. I have try outs today for the team so fingers crossed peoples.

Now everyone I am new at this blog thing obviously and I have no clue what I am doing half the time so I am sorry if it was wrong of me to intrude and become a follwer on your blog. Just delete me or whatever you do cause I just did what the little pop up told me plus you guys has some wicked sweet blogs. So excuse.

Akon - Beautiful
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=blMtpaEE4SU

Oh Goodness. Parents wtf?

Ah drama...It is the basic building blocks of what we call the teen life today. Like no shit but what is with parents and assuming things eh? They know absolutely nothing. zero. kaput. I mean we let them believe but cmon do they really have to be know-it-alls and assume what we chose to do or not do? Ive done some crap and I get stressed and my mom is like "I know why your stressed and its no big deal" and she has no clue. If she knew half of what I did I would be in a all girls school right now. Psh as if that would stop me but like I said bvefore we can let them believe.
Also what do parents believe they can accomplish by taking our phones? Um nothing. Wtf....so stupid I will still stay in contact with the outside world and livemy dramatic life to the fullest. I don't need a phone to do that. I am a big girl and can drive myself anywhere I please. They will never learn. Any opinions on this? I would LoVe to hear some charming rambling!

Panic at the Disco - Time to Dance
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-6x9drGXBVw

To work out or not to work out? That is the question.

So I just got back from eating out and I know I should work out for tennis but I really don't feel like it......hmm I think I will with my current fav song Right Round by Flo Rida. Provacative yet such a great song.

Heres a link for all you music lovers
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qQTD1V_qBCw


Ok my friend texted me my work out shecdule so I better get to it! Ta ta for now.

Goodmorning Glory!

Goodmorning all bloggers. I am about to begin the day and I thought I would pop in and type just a tad. I am just getting ready to start the day listening to the radio and putting on a pretty face BP ha but I came downstairs this morning to get a little coffee ( or tea or juice my preference changes for whatever I feel like atm) and I couldn't decided what to eat for breakfast. I am not a breakfast person. I find the whole orange juice, eggs and toast combination vile but I have to eat something cause I am in the middle of training for tennis and my coach gets pissy when we don't eat right. So I made myself a sandwhich. Total lunch food. Again thats just how I role. ;) Well I must leave now to go to meeting. Peace.

First Post Eva!

Ahhh ok so welcome to my blog everyone. I am very happy to finally have this little bugger up. It only took me forever but I am handicaped at anything dealing with the computer. -sigh- oh well I have got it working now! So you all can call me tennischic cause there is no way I am giving my name out but thats just how I roll. Feel free to comment and give me your opinions on anthing I post. Now I may not agree but hey I am all for a little debate. Now I am a chic and I will every once in awhile complain and bitch about stupid fickle boy problems but its my blog so I may do whatever I please and I will state things you will not agree with but hey again this is my blog. Oh god its late here and I am not thinking straight. I am already pointlessly ranting. tsk tsk. Well I shall be back to post something with more pazazz eventually. :)


Cause your eyes told the tale
Of an act of betrayalI knew that somebody did

-Can anyone tell me who sings this? I am gonna test your musical skills. :D-