Unwanted Care

Wow lookie here I finally have a free moment. Isn't this nice. Ok so I shall start my story leaving for Arizona.....

So we left and went to the airport to fly to Arizona and we got us some serious Starbucks. Ventis barely lasted us the first ten minutes of the flight though it was depressing. We pretty much listened to our ipods and read Cosmopolitian the whole time. It was great. Hehe. But lets see before I left I hooked up with my old umm well idk what to call him. I guess guy I kissed all the time and so I didnt want to be like that again so I told the guy, Gino, that I needed to be in a relationship to do anything with him so we decided to be together the day I left for my wEeK long trip. I shouldve know that would hard.
But so the first day we tanned and may I just say we didnt get any sun there. We just had weird reactions to the funky sun. But we went to a water park and relized everyone is on steroids there and attempted to get tan. Didnt work. One day we went on The Salty River tube thing and we sat in a tube for four hours. Yes four and got hit on by older men and saw wild horses. That was charming. We saw Sedona and all kinds of jazz. It was a LONG week considering I was attempting to make a relationship work. I failed.
Somehow we decided to go back to friends with benefits and I hate that and then now idk what we are cause I am frustrated and hurt and I really like this guy and I HATE it. Also one of my other guy friends likes me and idk how I feel bout that. Is it a good or bad thing? I am so lost right now and well sore cause Summer tennis training is brutal and I helped my friend move into her new house today. Oh and Gino keeps trying to get together with me but he uped and ignored me yesterday in front of his friends. Wtf? What does he want.
This post probably makes no sense since I am so tired. I am so sorry.

I Wish - The Secret Handshake
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wBR0lXD0hEs

Undressing The Words- The Maine
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FBpiFWfSKlw

Ewe. Arizona is well... Hot as Fuck.

I am in Arizona lovies. Sorry for my disapearance. Dang this foreign laptop is hard to type on. Well but yeah Arizona is hot and I have tons of stories to tell ya but I will have to type that up when I get back. Missin all ya bloggers. I really am missin my rant page aka my blog. D:

The Arizona Trip Theme Song

Justin Timberlake Featuring Timbaland - SexyBack
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iAT5ypTjKOI

Reckless Antics

How the hell did I end back with the guy from earlier this year who crushed me and used me? How did I let this happen again And most importanly how is it that I am happy with him again though I'm positive it wont last. I am gonna fool around again with him and fall for him again. Why can't I walk away from him? Why can't I find a normal relationship? Oh wait thats right this is my life so that wont be happening. I hate this and I hate him for choosing me to be the one girl he cant get enough of even though he will never commit. I couldnt just be one of those one time deals like the rest of the girls he has fooled around with. Just.....fuck.

Eminem - Lose Yourself
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xFYQQPAOz7Y

Oh and I leave for Arizona tommorow so sorry if I disappear for awhile :( How will I vent?

I Effed Up..But Did I?

Yeah I am so stupid.


Oh and I am a hypocrite.

Anna Nalick - Breathe (2AM)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jPz3YaIJkjQ

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,

can you help me unravel my latest mistake,

I don't love him, winter just wasn't my season

Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes

Like they have any right at all to critisize,

hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason

Tommorow by Lillix

tomorrow's just another day another way to spend my day all by my self starin at the tv screen flipping through my magazine everything is unclear i need you hear do

and i wake up put on my make up pick up the phone nobodys home i need to break out give me some take out standing side the crowd i wanna scream out loud i'll be ok i'll be ok

walking down this whining road raining days are all unknown i have hit the ground staring up into the sky countin all the reasons why my mind is spinning around i need to breath dooo

so,i wake up put on my make up pick up the phone nobodys home and i need to break out give me some take out standing side the crowd i wanna scream out loud i'll be ok

get off from the floor i just can't take anymore leave that all behind just get along

nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah oohhh

oh,i wake up put on my make up pick up the phone nobodys home and i need to break out give me some take out standing side the crowd i wanna scream out loud i'll be ok i'll be ok

oh,i wake up put on my make up pick up the phone nobodys home and i need to break out give me some take out standing side the crowd i wanna scream out loud

i need to break out!! were ok were alright were ok we'll be alright tomorrow's just another day another way to spend my day

Tomorrow- Lillix

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dsduZX_xwt0

I was completely obcessed with this song growing up. Thought I'd share it with ya peoples. :)

Reality Check with a Drop Rainwater

I had a fucking post typed up and it got deleted! Ugh that pisses me off so much! .......Alright I will retype it.

So my friend Jq has so many boy issues. She is talking to this dude Devin who openly admits to using her and leading her own but does she care? Nope and then there is the freak Brian guy who she used to be involved with but he never wanted to go public so she said forget that but now he is sending her pictures of his fugly penis and for some reason she is inviting him to my movie night. Hell no. Also there was the whole thing with the guy who talked her into phone sex and that ppls is why sexting is in every magazine and tabloid.

But yes so I told Logan that this whole thing wasnt worth it anymore and he didnt like that but honestly I am just done and I dont want him to hold me back this summer. Its to hard.

My coach is seriosuly pissin me off also so I am so switching coaches and that is just bad if he doesnt like it. He is ruining my game and that just can happen. I work to hard.

Its rainging here again. I like it.

Oh I also hate my dad now fyi. Like I am so done.

Holly Would You Turn Me On - All Time Low

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mqdrS1S44e4

Keri Hilson - Knock You Down ft. Kanye West & Neyo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Swj0zTG6wfI

Good or Bad?

Oh! For starters check out what I am gonna do with my hair!

How can you tell if a guy is a good or bad guy? Many girls ask themselves this when they start something with a new guy ( or girl matters your preference :P ) but most of the time they cant even give themselves a straight answer. There are little questions and things you can do to figure out if he really is into you or if he just wants to hook up. Like if you can't have a conversation with him about something that is imporant to ya then he probably just wants to hook up cause he doesnt care bout whats goin on in your life. Now I know its hard to say a guy is bad if he is a good kisser or knows just the right way to hold ya. These guys are pro hoes. They know exactly what to do to make ya melt that is until he finds a girl who he feels is better. Also if a guy tells ya he just doesnt want to be in a relationship right now STAY AWAY. He will never commit to you and he just wants to have fun with no commitment involved. Now I see stuff like the Chuck and Blair relationship on Gossip Girl and hope that there is a chance that a guy who says stuff like that will commit one day but reality is that life isnt tv and it definetly isnt like Gossip Girl. Also big egos are another thing you want to stay away from. That is a sign of a man hoe. Most of those guys are extremely cocky. Now there are many signs of a man hoe and I would like you to post some of the ones you know. Now here is a charming list of good qualities to look for in a guy.

Tennischic's List of Good Boy Qualities

1. He text you constantly. This shows he cares.
But not if its in a freaky stalker way. Stay away from those kind of guys.

2. He asks how you are and shows geniune concern when you have a problem

or your feelings have been hurt. Even if its a stupid problem he should be there for ya.

3. He compliments and notices things besides your boobs.

4. He loves everything bout ya you hate. Everything about ya is what makes ya you

and that is what he loves. You and your personality.

5. You can be completely honest with him. No secrets.

Secrets arnt a sign of a good relationship.

6. He puts you first but still finds time to be with his friends

7. Your music taste is similar. I know it sounds fickle but it actually is a big bonding point.

8. He says cute little things like good morning sexy when he text ya.

Cute things can be cheesy but ya know you love them anyways.

9. He is honest about himslef and his past

10. He introduces you to his friends and family proudly.

NeverShoutNever - Smelyalata

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z9mwFuBfnmI

The Follow Through - So High

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gfWVl99KmsM

Safetysuit - Stay

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wRUAMqDQ5s