Reckless Antics

How the hell did I end back with the guy from earlier this year who crushed me and used me? How did I let this happen again And most importanly how is it that I am happy with him again though I'm positive it wont last. I am gonna fool around again with him and fall for him again. Why can't I walk away from him? Why can't I find a normal relationship? Oh wait thats right this is my life so that wont be happening. I hate this and I hate him for choosing me to be the one girl he cant get enough of even though he will never commit. I couldnt just be one of those one time deals like the rest of the girls he has fooled around with. Just.....fuck.

Eminem - Lose Yourself
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xFYQQPAOz7Y

Oh and I leave for Arizona tommorow so sorry if I disappear for awhile :( How will I vent?

I Effed Up..But Did I?

Yeah I am so stupid.


Oh and I am a hypocrite.

Anna Nalick - Breathe (2AM)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jPz3YaIJkjQ

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,

can you help me unravel my latest mistake,

I don't love him, winter just wasn't my season

Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes

Like they have any right at all to critisize,

hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason

Tommorow by Lillix

tomorrow's just another day another way to spend my day all by my self starin at the tv screen flipping through my magazine everything is unclear i need you hear do

and i wake up put on my make up pick up the phone nobodys home i need to break out give me some take out standing side the crowd i wanna scream out loud i'll be ok i'll be ok

walking down this whining road raining days are all unknown i have hit the ground staring up into the sky countin all the reasons why my mind is spinning around i need to breath dooo

so,i wake up put on my make up pick up the phone nobodys home and i need to break out give me some take out standing side the crowd i wanna scream out loud i'll be ok

get off from the floor i just can't take anymore leave that all behind just get along

nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah oohhh

oh,i wake up put on my make up pick up the phone nobodys home and i need to break out give me some take out standing side the crowd i wanna scream out loud i'll be ok i'll be ok

oh,i wake up put on my make up pick up the phone nobodys home and i need to break out give me some take out standing side the crowd i wanna scream out loud

i need to break out!! were ok were alright were ok we'll be alright tomorrow's just another day another way to spend my day

Tomorrow- Lillix

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dsduZX_xwt0

I was completely obcessed with this song growing up. Thought I'd share it with ya peoples. :)

Reality Check with a Drop Rainwater

I had a fucking post typed up and it got deleted! Ugh that pisses me off so much! .......Alright I will retype it.

So my friend Jq has so many boy issues. She is talking to this dude Devin who openly admits to using her and leading her own but does she care? Nope and then there is the freak Brian guy who she used to be involved with but he never wanted to go public so she said forget that but now he is sending her pictures of his fugly penis and for some reason she is inviting him to my movie night. Hell no. Also there was the whole thing with the guy who talked her into phone sex and that ppls is why sexting is in every magazine and tabloid.

But yes so I told Logan that this whole thing wasnt worth it anymore and he didnt like that but honestly I am just done and I dont want him to hold me back this summer. Its to hard.

My coach is seriosuly pissin me off also so I am so switching coaches and that is just bad if he doesnt like it. He is ruining my game and that just can happen. I work to hard.

Its rainging here again. I like it.

Oh I also hate my dad now fyi. Like I am so done.

Holly Would You Turn Me On - All Time Low

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mqdrS1S44e4

Keri Hilson - Knock You Down ft. Kanye West & Neyo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Swj0zTG6wfI

Good or Bad?

Oh! For starters check out what I am gonna do with my hair!

How can you tell if a guy is a good or bad guy? Many girls ask themselves this when they start something with a new guy ( or girl matters your preference :P ) but most of the time they cant even give themselves a straight answer. There are little questions and things you can do to figure out if he really is into you or if he just wants to hook up. Like if you can't have a conversation with him about something that is imporant to ya then he probably just wants to hook up cause he doesnt care bout whats goin on in your life. Now I know its hard to say a guy is bad if he is a good kisser or knows just the right way to hold ya. These guys are pro hoes. They know exactly what to do to make ya melt that is until he finds a girl who he feels is better. Also if a guy tells ya he just doesnt want to be in a relationship right now STAY AWAY. He will never commit to you and he just wants to have fun with no commitment involved. Now I see stuff like the Chuck and Blair relationship on Gossip Girl and hope that there is a chance that a guy who says stuff like that will commit one day but reality is that life isnt tv and it definetly isnt like Gossip Girl. Also big egos are another thing you want to stay away from. That is a sign of a man hoe. Most of those guys are extremely cocky. Now there are many signs of a man hoe and I would like you to post some of the ones you know. Now here is a charming list of good qualities to look for in a guy.

Tennischic's List of Good Boy Qualities

1. He text you constantly. This shows he cares.
But not if its in a freaky stalker way. Stay away from those kind of guys.

2. He asks how you are and shows geniune concern when you have a problem

or your feelings have been hurt. Even if its a stupid problem he should be there for ya.

3. He compliments and notices things besides your boobs.

4. He loves everything bout ya you hate. Everything about ya is what makes ya you

and that is what he loves. You and your personality.

5. You can be completely honest with him. No secrets.

Secrets arnt a sign of a good relationship.

6. He puts you first but still finds time to be with his friends

7. Your music taste is similar. I know it sounds fickle but it actually is a big bonding point.

8. He says cute little things like good morning sexy when he text ya.

Cute things can be cheesy but ya know you love them anyways.

9. He is honest about himslef and his past

10. He introduces you to his friends and family proudly.

NeverShoutNever - Smelyalata

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z9mwFuBfnmI

The Follow Through - So High

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gfWVl99KmsM

Safetysuit - Stay

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wRUAMqDQ5s

Tennis Tournaments, Starbucks and Ruffled Covers

Ok so yesterday I woke up bright and early and got ready for the State Tournament for Tennis. Our school's number one doubles team had made it so we went out to support them. They lost

:( but the tournament was still amazing. I loved the atmosphere and all the tennis going on at one time. So I watched a couple other matches and I had been texting my college boy, Logan, during all of this. He gives me a call and says he wants to come get me so we can chill. Aka Makeout. So he comes and gets me and my friend Courtney. We go to my house and watch a movie while we wait for Courtneys bf Kyle to come over. Finally Kyle gets there and we are sitting there while they are downstairs and finally he mans up and kisses me. Coyrtney and Kyle of course decide to come back then. I asked them if they wanted to put another movie in and they just turned away from me so I took Logan to my room where we ruffled some covers. Now ppls I have my rules. One of them is that my pants and bra stay on if your not my boyfriend. That rule was followed thank you very much. But yeah I knew it would just be a hook up but he wants to see me again. Idk what to think cause he acts like he wants to see me so bad at one point and then changes his mind I guess and becomes distant. I knew nothing but stress would come out of this but hey I had a good time with him and I have a feeling that we will have a good time sneaking around in the future. He doesnt wants his cousins or mom to know cause well he is like 5 years older than me. That sounds so much worse typed D:

3OH!3- Punk Bitch
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5gaHflD4XCU

3OH!3- Still Around

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ta5nc8tyok0&feature=related

College Boyz Likie Hook Ups

Yeah so my sometimes friend Logan is back in town from college and I think he wants to hook up. Doing that never ends well for me. Never.

Is hooking up even right? Does it make you a hoe or a slut? I believe it matters your intentions and what you actually do. I will make out and play around being silly when hooking up cause its just beiong fun but when ytou push the limits and sleep with someone while hooking up that is takin it to far. You can get supa hurt just by makin out. Imagine if you go farther. You'll then be really hurt.

Some may label people for hooking up as a hoe or slut. But that isnt right. It is someones personal choice and unless they do it with different guys or while they have a boyfriend.

Life is complicated and this is just another dent in the page of the book we call Life.

Asher Roth - I Love College

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VRVFfgoIKcg