Salve!

Boy I haven't been on in FoReVeR. Geez. I just realized how much I love this thing. So I am sitting here watching the college episode of the O.C. and I just got on one of my college kicks again. I want to get into the University of Charelston SOOO bad. It has been my dream school for forever which is awesome but also icky. Its out of state and away from my bffl, Courtney. Just looking at the website makes me love the college so much more though. I already have a house I would love to live in. Its very victorican, which I love. But enough bout college.
Man I am so out of shape. I have slacked off. BIG TIME. It hurts to do crunchies for goodness sakes! D: I may cry.

Mood Swings Much

So today I totally freaked on my best friend cause I am a weird emotional freak. Well that or pms. But still I freak out randomly on people and it last bout five minutes top and then I calm down. I feel so bad. Hmmm maybe its cause I havent been sleeping. Or that I have been takin extra shifts at work. Gilmore Girls calm me down cause I am a weirdo. I own all the seasons. I am working on the fifth season as I type this. Hehe Jackson just got tricjed into a town meeting. Miss Patty has got skills. By now I am sure you ppl have no clue in fuck what I am talking bout. Oh! I am also addicted to Daisy Of Love. Love it! Flex is a hottie. Geez I really need to stop talking bout topics you all know nothing bout.

Tommorow I am having a girls night with my best friend though. Oh boy do I need that. We need time to talk without her boyfriend around. He really kills me sometimes. If he didnt make her so damn happy id probably shot him. I want my tea thats in my room but I just cant walk that far at the moment.
I LOVE putting pictures on my blog if ya havent noticed. I am sorry if I abuse this charming privilige but hey pictures are 2 Cute!
OK this is the haircut I want! These are bad pics though :(

So Cutie!

YOU HAVE TO BE PATIENT AND WATCH THE WHOLE SLIDE :D

Therapy

Ya know I started this blog was a in a really rough spot in my life. I had been used by a guy for the first time physically, I hadnt been talking to my good friends cause I was lost in all the trouble I had gotten myself into, I was involved with the wrong ppl, I had thrown myself into focusing on my DECA project and my life was just cracked and broken like glass. I couldnt get the full image of myself through to myself or anyone at that time. This blog was and still is my own special form of therapy. I vent and express myself without restrictions on here. It aloud me to mend and slowly put my peices back together. I needed the blog. It was my own form of a diary. I have always hated diaries so this fitted me well. I have my life pretty well together right now for the most part. Its still rough around the edges but I am working on sanding those out with the help of my friends and family. Its like its a neyear for me starting now. I want to do better and be better. I want to be able to look at myself or my friends and look straight into somones eyes and say that I am the best person I ca be. I want to be able to do that again. Soon I will be able to.

Britney Spears - Shattered Glass

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_r2MlOw7Er8

A Little Trainging Goes A Long Way

So I am back from my tennis trainging camp. It was fun but quite alot of work. We would wake up at seven and have to be at breakfast by seven thirty after breakfast we had yoga/streching then we would do drills till ten thirty and we would have a thirty minute break. We would then play till twelve when we would go to lunch and the after lunch we had to go swimming until our matches at three. Our matches ended at five thirty when dinner starts. After dinner we had thirty minutes to take showers and then we had a group activity such as Casino Night, movie, dance, etcs. till bout ten o'clock. That was one long and busy week.

So did I ever tell ya chics how boy texted me thinkin I wanted to hook up with him and I thought he had lost his mind. I just shook my head at that one.

I honestly have been thinkin bout Stubbs alot. I miss him and I wish he wouldnt ignore me. Even if we are just friends. I dont think he realizes how much I hate this and miss talking to him. I hate to even think that telling him how I feel ruined everything.

But I am home now and it feels great but I feel so lazy I havent played tennis in two days D: Thats to long. OMG has everyone heard bout Roger Federer winning the mens finals of Wimbledon and Serena Williams winning the womans finals at Wimbledon?!?!?!? I wanted Andy Roddick to win!!

There was this weird boy at camp who had a fake girlfriend who stalked our team. Weirdo.

Happy Late Fourth :)

I am so lost in my world of random comings and goings.

good girls go bad - cobra starship ft. leighton meester

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yx1qf66EhZw

all those nights - dear juliet

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5P5lLMlgtZc

Everybody Everybody - Black Box Hehe Camp Theme Song :P

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QXV4_ETsw-Y

Ello luvies! I am so sorry for another one of my disappearing acts. I know I pull those every once in awhile and I am sorry to say I will be disappearing for another week starting Sunday for I am going to train for tennis at some camp. Whooo fun. Maybe ill lose some weight while I am there. That would please me greatly.

Well I was making some coffee and I thought of my darling blog and I just decided to come leave a small post :)

My life is still full of boy drama if ya know me. I let Gino go cause well I couldnt be that girl and well he was a dick to me and girl I do not take that shit. But then my good friend Stubbs came along and he finally told me he liked me. I was really happy suprisingly and I told him I liked him to. We set up a double date cause we wanted to go slow since we both just got out of relationships and he ended up not being able to come. I was so mad and to top it off I almost died because of a fly. Some suicidal fly landed in my iced coffee and I almost had a heart attack. I downed a whole thing of mouthwash after that. But then Stubbs like ignored me after that and left me confused. Not some unnormal for me. I finally confronted him bout it and guess what he said. The same shit I feel like I have heard countless times this year. "I like you I really do but I don't want a relationship right now."

@_@

There is obviously something seriously wrong with me.

Yeah..this is the charming boy life of a tennsichic. Geez I hate it. So now I am single and just trying to work it to the best of my abilites.... I think I can rock it :)

Welcome! the new follower on my blog btw. I ts nice to have ya here luv.

Katy Perry - Simple

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CGyqdB_hFxw

The Magic Numbers - Mornings Eleven

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CFZtSZQ0XgQ

Incoming

buzz buzz buzz...

The jean pocket goes

I glance and hit ignore in disgrace

I dont deserve this do I?

Why does he keep coming back?

I keep hittin ignore, dismiss, mute..

Come over

Lets get out

What you doin

The demands to see me file in endlessly

I tell myself he doesnt care

If he did he wouldnt have done those things

Remember the pool

The disgusted looks on peoples faces

The looks of pity from his own friends faces

They all tried to warn you

But now the punishment wears me down

buzz buzz buzz...

Deep breath

The favorite chic flick has been resorted to full of passion and intensity

It doesnt help

Nothing does

Even the closest friends wisdom seems like poppycock

buzz buzz buzz..

All I can do is turn away

Hit that ignore button one more time

If I don't its just one more crack in my foundation

No one wants to be that girl

No one wants to see me be that girl

I wont be that girl.

The emptiness will take time to fill

Everything takes time

You know what he wants

He has got enough

Now with closed eyes I think over and over again

He does not care. He does not care. He does not care.

He actually does not care........

Kate Nash - Foundations

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uhC4E055OsY

Hilary Duff - The Getaway

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iD5hwDIjePs